About choices.

For a long time i felt like life was happening to me.

Mostly during my teen and twenties, I felt like god was picking on me.

A lot of things in my life didn't seem like a choice is would make. But then, there I was. In the middle of the fight with life.

To take accountability for my choices I had to crash pretty hard.

Really dive into myself in a way that just, honestly felt like sh%t.

I feel now that taking accountability for myself, is a great way to expand my freedom.

As a human, I make mistakes, I dont always get it right, I hurt people, I lack.

But since I changed the narrative in myself that what ever situation I am in, it was my choice. It set me free. Honestly.

And I understand that this can be very difficult to get on board with. I mean sometimes it feels impossible to say, yes this also my choice.

Like when you are in terrible situations, abuse, conflict, discrimination, and all that stuff. How can we say, yes I choose this.

Well try to look at it like this.

My spirit came to earth to be happy. And now all obstacles for me to reach that will manifest in my life. And every time I find myself in a situation that feels out of my control, I go back to that first choice.

The choice of incarnating, and being a human alive today.

I have to unpack the many personality and ego positions that I have.

Who is making these choices?

Is it my spirit, my subconscious self that is choosing this situation to heal?

Is this my ego, choosing to stay attached and create obstacles for me to heal?

Is this my wounded inner child that is choosing to hide out of fear?

Is it my grown up part that is choosing accountability?

So many choices, out of so many different positions.

A fun project to unpack.

And what ever you choose today, I hope you will always choose connection over fear and love over pain.